I recently read some of my old threads and I was a basket case, so no, I do not think you are insane.
I really do understand how much you are hurting and taking things hour by hour rather then day by day can help you to get through the rough spots.
Being left with all of the responsibility of the children and having to do everything on your own without a choice is very draining.
As much as we love our kids, none of us signed up for single parenthood. I know how difficult that part of my life had become with the juggling of schedules and trying to be happy for their sake.
Trying to figure out MLCBS is mind boggleing and will also drive you nuts at times. Wondering what stage they are in and if they really mean the things they say.
Focus on God, allow him to soothe your heart and only do what you can do. Don't try to be Superwoman. Just be CM.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
