the anniversary sounds terrific and the health issues sound not so fun. I'm sorry about the constant headache. I do know that constant pain can ruin everything in life.
I hope the new meds work in the short run, and that you get some sense of what is going on really soon.
Okay I know this is off topic but I need to vent somewhere.
This headache thing is really getting old. I can't concentrate at work, and I'm being a huge you-know-what at home. I can't get away from the pain and it's making life absolutely difficult.
So far over the course of the past week and a half I've been put on 5 different medications and nothing seems to give me immediate relief. It either has no effect or I am severely allergic. I give up!
Now H is getting annoyed with me because I'm so crabby all the time and we are arguing constantly. On Sunday we went and got a new puppy. It was a long drive and the boys were non-stop fighting in the back seat...on the way there and back. Well, when we got home my head was splitting in half and I thought I was going to die. So, I was already annoyed out of my mind. Well, SS11 decides with dinner he wants chocolate milk. Now, I wouldn't have minded except there was barely 1 sip of milk left in the carton, and it wouldn't have made any sense to waste the chocolate to make the milk for it. But NOOOOO SS11 insisted on having the last word, and in the process causing H and in launch into WWIII. I "ran away" into our bedroom, and it all some how turned out to be my fault.
I didn't want to talk to anyone, see anyone or deal with anyone at that point. Now, I don't know if many of you remember how SS11 is. But, he's always....and I mean always has to be right and have the last word. Regardless if he's in the wrong or not. I guess I should have let it go and let him have the milk. (Honestly I was thinking it would have been an inconvience to me, due to that I would have had to give SS11 something else to drink whilst in the middle of dinner.) But, hey I guess Mom is always wrong...right???
I'm at my wits ends here. H said "All you ever talk about it your stupid headaches. This is like when you had carpal tunnel, that's why I never wanted to talk to you. You make everyone else's lives miserable because you are in pain." See, when I talk about information I've learned about my possible condition he changes the subject or walks away. So, I told him that flat out...I said he doesn't act like he cares if I live or die, if I'm in pain or not, because he does this. He says he just doesn't want to hear it cause I talk about it all the time. And honestly no I don't. The headaches have been going on for a month. Yes, it consumes me because I deal with it daily.
But, I ask this question...If I can't talk to my H about this and whine to...who do I talk to about this?? So, in any case I've made a pact with myself....don't talk about it unless it's neccesary.
What doesn't help is SS11 is acting up at school. I guess his teacher told him he needs an attitude adjustment. And sadly he does. I've been forcing H to take a more active role in his school and discipline cause I'm tired of being the bad guy. I'm giving SS11 plenty of rope to hang himself. And he's done it....
I don't know, maybe I'm not coping well with the health news. Or I need a vacation. But, my head is going to explode and I don't know what to do.
Funny thing is sometimes....sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I would have told H to take a hike? These past several days have filled with lots of self doubt. My MRI is tomorrow....and I'm frightened to death. I'm sure there isn't anything there, but still.
Help!
PS
To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. - David Viscott
1. Chronic Sinusitis 2. Migraine Headaches 3. Old head injury (I have been involved in 3 car accidents in the past 6 years. 2 just recently.)
My GP put me on antibiotics for my sinusitis, and I'm on anti depressants for the migraines. I'm pretty much done with the antibiotics and I was told that if the headaches don't go away with that to come back in.
So, as of today I still have the headaches. With no relief in the near future. I've pretty much run out of options as far as the meds go. I'm pretty intolerant to most of the prescriptions that they've given me, so I don't know what else they can try. I've done some research and seen something about surgery. My GP also mentioned admitting me to put me to "sleep" so the headaches will go away. I don't know exactly what that means, but I guess we will see.
I've got a dr. appointment on Friday to see what my other options are. I'm really frustrated because I can't concentrate anymore. My mind wanders cause it hurts so much. It hurts to blink, it hurts to move my eyes, it hurts to breathe through my nose. I'm exhausted because I have a difficult time falling asleep.
*sigh*
Anyways, life here in MN is still flipping cold! We are supposed to get snow here today. Can you believe that snow in April??? My H just called and said there were flakes falling on his way home from work. Blech!
Also, in other news H got a call from a VP of the company offering him a possible promotion elsewhere in the company. It sounds promising. I guess he was told that he needs to see if he can "interview" for the postion and if yes, he can have the job. Then we can go back to M-F hours. Plus it will be out of the department with OGW! Yay!
Yes, she is still there. It bothers me a lot, but I try not to think about it. H is supposedly going to a "meet and greet" at a local restaurant with his department. I don't know if OGW will be there. Too bad I can't be a fly on the wall.
Things are getting better in my mental health department. I'm slowly still healing and moving on. H and I laugh a lot these days, and have lots of fun. We enjoy quiet time alone, when we can.
One thing that I am looking forward to is the possibility of us renewing our vows. I don't know to what extent we are going to go. But, I do hope that we are able to do it and invite our families. My H and I got married at the Justice of the Peace so I didn't get the whole "big white wedding" thing. It would be nice to do so, but $$$ is the big thing.
Okay well enough rambling. I do hope everyone is well.
P and S
To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. - David Viscott
Hi there !! I don't think I've ever posted to you...it's so nice to hear of another person that is back with their beloved spouse...I wish you well, and hope that you will get rid of that horrendous headache of yours !!!! It sounds horrible !!! Take care and I hope you get better soon !!!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Thank you for your concern. I'm just trying to get by each day without losing it. Crying just makes the headaches worse.
Yes, things are better. Sometimes I feel guilty for posting my complaints when I am back with my H. I do hope some of what I post, helps people here. To show that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
P and S
To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. - David Viscott
I just wanted you to know that I have the dreaded migraines and was put on AD's too. My Dr. put me on zoloft and it has helped tremendous. I have tried all the others, imitrex and having to go into the Dr.s office to get shots to stop the headaches. My headaches are cluster migraines. My headaches have slowed so much now and when I get one it isn't severe like before and I can deal with it.
I feel for you my friend! It's bad enough to have to deal with the migraines and reconnection!!!
Thanks for the words of encouragement. I worry that I shouldn't be here anymore. But, it's funny this bbs is like a drug. I lurk and see what is going on. I find it difficult to find the right words to help others. If there is anything that I can do for you, don't hesitate to ask....or anyone else that is out there.
YR,
Thanks for your kind words too. I think the migraines compounded with the chronic sinusitis is what I am having problems with. Also, my biggest issue is that I have been on 8 different medications over the past 2 weeks and absolutely nothing has helped. I've mainly had allergic reactions ranging from a simple rash to anaphylaxis. So, I've managed to cross off a lot of meds off the list. I've tried Imitrex and that didn't help. (That gave me the anaphylaxis) And I've done caphrogot (sp?) I got blue fingernails and toenails, and tingling hands and feet from that one. The rash was caused by prednisone. So, I don't know.
They may talk surgery next for the sinusitis. I'm just sick and tired of being sick and tired. Like this morning...I didn't want to get out of bed. My morning ritual has been: 1. Wake up 2. Feet on the floor 3. Cross your fingers that the headache is gone. 4. Ack! Nope still there.
Yes, the reconnection and the headaches have been very trying. I guess most days I just feel like a big whiner. *sigh*
Oh what to do????
P and S
To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. - David Viscott
I'm just trying to get by each day without losing it. Crying just makes the headaches worse.