Having him gone like this for 10 days and no phone contact feels like I'm back in divorce. Actually it's even worse because we at least had contact through the kids during the week. I keep thinking I'm still detached but, I feel like I'm going though some of those "withdrawls" I felt during the divorce (where I physically ache for him). It always amazes me how intense feelings get during separation and divorce.
Cat, thanks for the book recommendation. I'm going to run over to the bookstore when I pick up my son from school today and see if I can get it.
Sol, thanks for the kind words. Sometimes we all need a little shot of optimism. I appreciate your support too.
One of my close girlfriends thinks I need to go on a trip trip with some of my girlfriends just so my husband can understand how it feels. I wouldn't want to do this out of revenge, (honestly, I would always rather take a trip with him than anyone else). But he does lack empathy and it does seem like the only time he "gets" things is when he experiences them. It's like he needs to go through something to understand it. Does this sound like a good idea? Bad idea?
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
