Root, don't stress over it. Let it blow over, and you can get back to your original plan. I too get stressed out when things are not going the way I envisioned, but don't lose hope. It was a little slip of the tongue, we all get them. You've been so supportive and helpful in my sitch and I am very grateful for that.
I agree that it should be YOU on that cruise, but considering the company there, you don't belong with them right now.
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~