No, I don't think I can retrieve them. At this point all I can do is point out that I left them after going out with friends, being tipsy from a couple of chocolate martinis, and after listening to everyone comment on how they thought he should have invited me to go on the cruise.
I definitely don't sound needy or desperate in them, but probably controlling. I tend to push him away when I'm upset. In one message I gave him his attorney's phone number and said to call him ASAP so we can get a court date!!! You'd think after all that has happened I could just take the time to settle down and calmly deal with the whole thing instead of impatiently overreacting and doing stupid things.
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
