I am just sensitive to being judged. I am also still working on solidifying my M and recommitting the way I need to. I'm sure Nop sensed that and called me out on it. This has actually been very helpful to me, this whole exchange. I feel better about where my M needs to go so hooray for that.
Sometimes all we need to do is get out of our own way, eh? Try not to drop that Grail, honey, it can get a little heavy sometimes.