Hi Was2, Lisa is SmartnSassy, but I do not think she posts as often anymore. She was over in infidelity when I first got here and used to post there frequently.
Yes, you are right, there is no rush. I think sometimes I want to rush it because I need to know if H and I are going to get back together. To be very honest with you, I do not "feel" that strongly about it anymore. I really used to think we would. Even with original ow out of the picture now I thought he would be ready to try. Not thus far though. And he has told me he can't just "jump right back into it" with me; that he is not ready for that. I do not know what he is trying to say when he says this...because after that remark I later found out he was casually seeing that friend of his. So it comes off like, "I'm not ready to reconcile because I'd rather cast my net large and wide, date around and see if I can do better than you before I resign myself to coming back to you." Maybe that is the wrong interpretation, but that is how it felt. I do not know if he's dating anyone now. If not, then that gives me hope. But to bring someone new into this situation will only continue to distract him and cause more guilt, won't it? He says he is so guilty over cheating on me and needs time to get over that...so he started spending his free time with a different woman? Nice irony, H. Just some thoughts today... Thanks, Was2. You know I love to hear from you. You are so wise and steady. I feel very lucky to have "met" you on here and your support has always meant so much to me.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
