I think this is where I belong

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Cinders,
I made the mistake of pushing a little bit last night about the OP. Of course my W still loves him. Not listening to some rather brilliant advice I gave JBF a while ago, I of course feel totally inadequate. Obviously the OM is better, faster, stronger, able to leap tall buildings in a single bound, and can make my W happy while I can't. Of course that's BS too.

I think you are right not to ask your H about the OW. His answer wouldn't change anything and would just make you sad.

That panic can come out of nowhere, and can really knock you off your feet. But I'm always surprised that I keep going anyway - we all do. It can't beat us. It hasn't yet. Life goes on.

And I too believe. I have faith. I KNOW that I will be happy again, and that you and everyone else will be too. Patience. There are moments of happiness now, on this board, in 'real' life. Unless there is clinical depression, or other medical problems (and those can be treated) there is no reason why we will not overcome all of this crap.