Cinderellaman - I am not tough because it makes me feel good. I once remember BND having a real go at someone on their thread, and they have been so much better ever since - and I think of BND as being the gentlest and most compassionate of people.
Don't beat yourself up for feeling bad. You wouldn't have loved your h much if you didn't feel bad. That is the problem. Acceptance will only come gradually, and you will have set backs - that is why we are all here for each other. I just hope there isn't a day when we all feel bad at the same time!! Like women who work toegethe getting on the same cycle.
Anyway, feel free to vent here. Complain to us, not your h. To him you are cheerful, pleased with life, and fine. Practice makes perfect. Your kids love you, your friends and family love you, and you don't appear to have money worries.
