The things inside our heads are worse then the reality of the situation.
It is called anxiety.
Gardening.... In order to produce a bountiful harvest, you have to get rid of all of the weeds. Fertilize, water, plenty of sunshine and ...patience!!!
Hang in there, you will do fine.
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.