Hi guys I'm back .....had my facial...mmmmm feel slightly better...

Thanks for all your posts...I received an e-mail from H just before I left for the facial, it said that he had spoken to S3's teacher at school this morning, told me what about, said S3 is being very difficult, and is having rage attacks...OH MY...what now....?? anyway, he then said he'd drop the kids off here on Sunday at 3.30pm and if I could go to the hockey match next Saturday with D8 as he was UNAVAILABLE........what is that ?? Urgh, I really feel like going over there and HITTING HIM OVER THE HEAD WITH A HAMMER !!! Just so that he'll wake up - PLEASE !!! I guess it's really hard not knowing what's going on with him.....it's hard to know it as well, please don't take me wrong, this just seems to be a no win situation at times...

I wrote back asking if he was picking them up Friday at 7pm and if he was ok from last Saturday, and that I didn't want to make him feel that I didn't care, but that he asked me to let him go, and that this was all hurting enough allready.

Maybe bad - NO NO - who knows....but it's out.

I guess Angelica is right, we should look at this as gardening, I've never been patient enough to garden, neither has H...but this does seem to be that a seed was planted LONG ago and now we'll have to wait and see what comes out...patience yes...
I will try my best I really will. I just don't like the situation we're all in...sometimes it's just all so sad ....


Love Cinders xxx

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