AH, goal, Thank you. I am so appreciative of both the good news & all the support here. It really means so much.
Had a really nice day w/family again. Spent time with baby, then went out to dinner with a cousin who's in from out of town. So nice to catch up.
We talked about H. I know she is so angry about what has happened to me, and she doesn't think I should talk to H anymore. She totally understands the kind of person I am. I can tell she would not be a stander; she wouldn't put up with all of this. It isn't that she doesn't support me, but she worried about me that whole year while H was being so awful, during replay. Anyway, she agrees with me that H is suffering from depression and needs to get help in order to get better. But of course the problem is he won't do that.
I was thinking again today, amidst all of this happiness, that H is missing out on so much that he could be a part of. Not just with me, but with everyone in my family who loved him very much. He and my brother were very close for many years. H should have been here to see this, but he is not. And he didn't end up giving my brother a call, but I guess I didn't really expect him to do that.
So life just continues to go on. I'm still so sad for what happened and the rejection still hurts a lot. I wish I could make myself feel better about that somehow, but it hasn't happened as of yet.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
