MrsH, NJ, Thanks! I will be back at the hospital later to see the baby. Some of my extended family is in town this week, so we will hook up later to visit, too. I'm just really enjoying this time right now. Spring is coming, and I want to start moving on from all of this. I think I'm at the point where anything is possible; maybe H gets himself together and wants to be with me, or maybe someone else more stable comes into my life. I do not know...it all lies ahead I guess. But I am not in the mindset that I will be with H in the future. Now it's just a maybe. And it's good that I see it that way.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
Always_14, no trips. I am hoping to be newly employed though! And there is plenty to do around here when the weather warms up, so I am looking forward to that. Yes, it does hurt to let go of the past. But I am so glad it isn't last spring...or the one before. I don't know if I could go thru all of that again. I really don't.
H is quiet today. Guess yesterday was too much contact for him. Now he's back to living in his own world. Sometimes I feel sorry for him, and other times I truly don't. We have to own our choices.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
I'm running behind, I'm so glad to hear about the new baby and the negative test results. You were due for a run of good news, and now you have it. Hurray!!!
I'm doing great. Life is really good for me right now. Everything is falling into place. I'm going to Dallas in a couple weeks and will get to finally meet Lisa.
Keep hanging in there, girlfriend. You're doing a great job. All that you have going on and dealing with all that snow on top of it! It's a wonder you aren't certifiable right now. I hope Spring comes to you soon.
Hugs,
Spitfire
Always do right. This will gratify some people, and astonish the rest. Mark Twain
AH, goal, Thank you. I am so appreciative of both the good news & all the support here. It really means so much.
Had a really nice day w/family again. Spent time with baby, then went out to dinner with a cousin who's in from out of town. So nice to catch up.
We talked about H. I know she is so angry about what has happened to me, and she doesn't think I should talk to H anymore. She totally understands the kind of person I am. I can tell she would not be a stander; she wouldn't put up with all of this. It isn't that she doesn't support me, but she worried about me that whole year while H was being so awful, during replay. Anyway, she agrees with me that H is suffering from depression and needs to get help in order to get better. But of course the problem is he won't do that.
I was thinking again today, amidst all of this happiness, that H is missing out on so much that he could be a part of. Not just with me, but with everyone in my family who loved him very much. He and my brother were very close for many years. H should have been here to see this, but he is not. And he didn't end up giving my brother a call, but I guess I didn't really expect him to do that.
So life just continues to go on. I'm still so sad for what happened and the rejection still hurts a lot. I wish I could make myself feel better about that somehow, but it hasn't happened as of yet.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
I'm doing great. Life is really good for me right now. Everything is falling into place. I'm going to Dallas in a couple weeks and will get to finally meet Lisa.
Keep hanging in there, girlfriend. You're doing a great job. All that you have going on and dealing with all that snow on top of it! It's a wonder you aren't certifiable right now. I hope Spring comes to you soon.
Hugs,
Spitfire
Spitfire, I'm so glad you posted, and wait till you meet Lisa. She is one of the only people I ever met from the boards and she is a ton of fun...and SO sweet. You will love her. Tell her hello from me, will you? And tell her I still think about her. She helped me through a lot over a year ago. Have fun on the trip and report back! Hope
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
I hope Spring comes to you soon.