I really need help with this one. The other shoe just dropped, i think! I got the infamous "I need to talk to you and I need you to be an adult about it, but not right now". i said sit down and talk to me, don't be afraid after all we've been through.
"Here goes... he says, she's my friend and we are really tight," and i need to have contact with her". (which he agreed to drop all contract with her and end if BEFORE he came home, this was 3 days ago and I know they have been talking every day.) AGGHHHHHHH! He said no more lying I want to be honest with you. Then he throws her Cancer shit in my face!(sorry anyone with cancer). Then he's telling much to much than I ever want to here like we went here and we did this and she buys this for me can you?
And than he tells me she didn't like the gloves that were bought for her at work (which she works for the same company I do)so he went and bought her special gloves and he wants me to be professional at my work and send them interoffice mail to her for her.!!! AGGHHHHHHHHHHH! I put the big "as if" FAKE smile on my face and said, oh yes, I understand how you feel I will send them to her. then i stood up for myself and said "I have been nothing but 200% professional in my job and at home through all of this and nobody including him, her or anybody elst will ever take that away from me ever!!!!
He then told me he feels he left her when she needed him and he fu**ed her over. And then I went back into "as if" mode and said I respect and understand that. (BARF BARF BARF!) and I understand that if she needs to talk about her cancer stuff once in awhile not everyday or he needs to talk about it or anything else to me, I would understand (BArf) I then said I could not and would not put up with him cheating on me and wanted us to clarify what cheating was to each of us because I am sure we bothe had different opinions on that one. I said no going out with her whatsover! No drinks, no dinners, no concerts, no hanging out and no sleeping with her and I said that it cheating. I think I even said, please do not do that to me anymore. I can not deal with it. I told him I had made mistakes and I have been putting 200% into this relationship for over a year now and I have been changing. That I did not care about the past, but right here right now. A new beginning. Maybe an even better one than we could imagine. he told me not to worry about my mistakes in the past because he was not worried about them and he said again it is going to take time and just one day at a time and I agreed but I said don't ask me to let you cheat on me because I can't.
He even at one point threatened me to go back to her if he could not keep in contact with her in the middle of the conversation. At the end he seemed satisfied because I had agreed to let him keep contact with her. I went home and CRIED. He was Happy! This is killing me. Is this a death sentence or what? She is always going to have a problem for gosh sakes, when is it going to end! He is changing the rules!!! WHT THE FK?! Is this ever going to end?
Did I take a baby step forward or 2 steps backward? I don't even know. my head is spinning. Could somebody see anything in here to make me stop crying. I hate her! She cries to him all the time and he jumps. I can even look a little crooked and god for bid he tells me to stop whining. Which I never do anyways because i would hate to put him out!!! I have never seen anyone more needy in my life?! And I'm sorry she might have cancer, but she has a family! i can't even feel sorry for her and that makes me feel guilty and makes me hate her even more!!!! AGGGHHHHH!! Get Out of my life Bit**!!!!!!!! Sorry, venting.
Oh wasn't I the one that just said he never talks about the R. I take it back. Way back. i couldn't stand talking about it. It was all about HER!!!! It's always about HER!!!!!!
