Sorry you're feeling sad today. I hope it's not "shock" and take your breath away sad. I guess we all go back there. sigh. Try not to get your hope up about her popping up out of the tunnel. I know it's hard not to, but it'll only hurt you. I have this wierd meditation that I do where I focus on a new R with H at the same time without expectations for it. Sounds bizarre I know, but it works for me. If you haven't tried meditating, just to sit quietly and breathe, it can do wonders.
