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Uuf, I know what you mean about that sudden feeling of total disbelief just like when it first happened. It can take your breath away.

Does you W still say I Love You? Do you or would you believe her if she did/does? My W doesn't say ILY. I want her too, but I want her to mean it when she does say it. I guess they can mean it and not mean it at the same time, right?

My job isn't keeping me busy enough today, so I'm writing a lot here on the boards. I guess I need to connect with people today too. But I too am getting stronger. I'm in pain, I'm worried, but I'm not as tense, as upset, as worried as I've been in the past.

The reading that Smurf has put together here about MLC is helpful, but frightening. I don't envy you at all. I really hope my W doesn't follow the path, although if she has to go through it, I kind of wish she would get on with it and get it over with. If it's going to take years, lets get moving.

I just talked on the phone to my friend. His girlfriend left him, but wanted to keep the door open. He said no, either you're with me or you're not. He told me he is feeling stronger and better all the time. He is feeling she has done him a favor. He's realizing that he was doing all the giving and getting very little in return. I was going to try to talk him into giving the DB method a try, but he seems to be doing well. I can imagine both of us feeling a bit of relief if we do end up separating from our Ws. I imagine it will hurt, but there might be good alternatives out there too ;-)

do you ever listen to internet radio? If you've got the time and are interested, 2 of my favorite stations are on the web. They are both very eclectic (or wierd if you prefer). they are http://www.kgnu.org and http://www.radio1190.org. another fun one is http://www.weru.org.

Sun is shining, life goes on, and there is still good in it. Hope you are feeling well.