Don't Trade Our Love For Tea & Sympathy

[COG]

BI,

I spent some time reading your blog. Here's the message I got.

I think it's time you give back your H's passwords, and let him know you trust him completely again. You'll always have some fears, but it's completely up to you to make the decision to trust. Sounds like your H has never been told he's a man, and a damn fine man at that. I sense he has'nt heard those words in a VERY long time if ever from you.

You want him to love you, to desire you, to relish you. I know the feeling, but it's just not happening right now. So we CAN go out and find that immediate gratification in the arms of someone else, but what will we have accomplished? And what weakness is it in US that would even contemplate such a step? I don't believe in allowing ourselves to be doormats, but we are called to the most difficult of tasks, to deeply love someone who can't love us in return. It's vomit inducing, but it's our calling right now. Let's hang in there and see it through to the glory.

God Bless,

COG

PS My experience with 3 years of C was mixed. I found that the longer I went, the more frustrated the C became, and the more drastic their recommendations. I/we went to two different ones, and I went to 3 or 4. When it reached a point that I would enter a session feeling good, and leave feeling bad then I quit going altogether. They can really stir up the S??t sometimes.