No Contact for the sake of Sanity

[Cinderellaman]

I worry though that H will be very firm in this NC thing...so he really WON'T contact me at all, he hasn't even asked the kids how I'm doing ...maybe he's relieved that I let go...afterall he did ask me to let to on Saturday, when he had his breakdown ...maybe I am pushing him very far away like this........so far that he won't want to come back, maybe he's incredibly happy that he's finally on his own, without any burden from me.......uuuuuuurrrghhhhhhh....... I hate this sometimes.....just when you think that you've made the best descision ever, you start to wonder if because it's working for you, it might be working for him, but in a way that I DON'T wish it to work for him........

On the other hand...I had a thought about H going on his "student"-low-budget-ski-trip. OW's friend is going, and she is a realy NUTTER, she is such a drama queen...I can just imagine H having to get on with her for a week !!!! HAHAHAHAHHA...think NOT !!!!



UUUUUURRRRRGGGHHHHH - still confused, must go and reread all your posts to me, because I really don't know if I'm pushing him away....after all he wants ATTENTION right, he craves it, OW gives it, WHY CAN'T I ??? WHY don't they want our attention, or do they secretly want it ??? aaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrggggggggghhhhhhh
Had too much dinner - brain working overtime !!!