I have been detaching much better and I am feeling overall much stronger but I do seem to have been thrown a bit from that the last couple of days. I think because she seems to be struggling, it's got my hopes up that she's popping her head out of the tunnel. But of course she probably isn't and I am letting the false hopes get to me.
Also this job prospect has got me reevaluating too. Most of the time I feel like yes, I am moving on, although if she wanted to reconnect I'd be there to listen so I haven't shut the door.
This morning I felt the total disbelief that this is happening that I felt at the beginning of all this. When that happens, I re read texts she sent me when she was living at home and out seeing OM- guilt texts on the whole e.g. 'Sleep well. See you tomorrow. Love you' etc. Those remind me of the pain I was in and I'm definitely in a better place than that, however sad I feel today. Thanks for your support.
