Good heavens. It's been too difficult for me to post on my own thread this week. Don't know why. Having a tough time mentally. H came to bed after 4am for the 2nd night in a row today and we ended up arguing (and me beating him with a pillow in frustration. good times.) ugh. I feel neglected, he feels attacked. blah blah. same sh!t, different day.

Going to C in about 10 minutes. All day yesterday, I kept thinking, Just hold it in until you get to C and process it there. Um...not such a successful plan. Ack. So discouraged. I am coming undone in the M area. I'll climb back up shortly I'm sure. I am Pendulum Girl, watch me swing. ugh.

Anyway, just posted this on another thread and realized the hijack-ness of it. Should be over here instead.
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In all my single years, I NEVER considered an affair with a married woman. I was propositioned by a few unhappy ones back then, but never let myself be seduced by one. I can't imagine the lack of integrity, morals, and self-respect it would take to resort to that. Would you personally consider a relationship with a married W?


Well, I failed that test many years ago pre-M. Just started posting that story on my blog, oddly enough, and here you guys are talking about it. I was young and stupid, but still. Just trying to purge my past sins and figure out my common denominator.

If we were picking who would win the Integrity Battle in my M, it would have been H by a mile. I have a sorely checkered past. Actually, now that I remember it, I confessed it to my H not too long after we were M and he was horrified at me (in a Who Are You? I Don't Even Know You kind of way). Plus he knew the couple involved. Oh, the irony.

Geez, sorry for the hijack Will stick this on my own neglected thread!

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19

If it seems slow in coming, wait.
It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3

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