Thanks Cinders. You sound like you are doing well. I have things to do better. Many things. But it is falling into place now.....he has to do what he has to do.....and I cant not be a part of it. Ick and I dont want to. I keep telling everyone a neutral place has worked for me. Stand or not standing....it will be my choice whether I let him in. I just dont want to let life pass me by any longer. I mite miss the oppurtunity of a lifetime....be it a job, a place to live, new friends or even the love of a lifetime. It mite not or mite be my H.

Has anyone noticed we are almost all cycling the same???????


Me 53
H 51
OW 25
Bomb may 06
left june 8/ 06
ILYBNILWY (twice!)
7/6/07 H wants to come home
7/21/07 H comes home
7/07 -7/08 long haul letting go of OW
now piecing in earnest