What a lovely and sweet thing your wrote me !!! I know this is best, and I know this is the only way he might ever miss me, and I know this is all that I can do for now......My head knows all this.......but my body and soul ache for the pain he is going through.......for the torture in his mind, for the foolish things he is doing, for him missing out on his kids, for all the pain it has caused them, him and me ........yet I KNOW this is what I must do for now.
Taking it step by step is exactly how this should be done, thank you, that was wonderful advice....it's nice to know you've felt the same and been in the same situation ...well, for comfort's sake, not because I wish this on anyone !!
I'm off to take the girls to hockey practice, it should be fun, I have lots of girlfriends that go there and we always have a great chat there !! My life is really good at the moment...I have lots of friends(and many of them really care, and I guess I'm lucky that many of them also see H doing stuff that is really MLC, so they know it's probably that, so they have compassion....for me, but also for him !!) I'm enjoying my kids and my new found freedom to do what I like...so I am OK on the whole !! Even quite happy actually. Of course I don't deny that having H find his way back to us would be the cherry on the cake !! hahaha - Just pictured him as a cherry !!!
Anyway, thanks so much for your post, it's so wonderful that you are all so sweet and encouraging through all of this !!!
Back later !!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
