Yes, well today xw called and was all apologetic because she finally realized that she was now fighting for the days she had given me earlier. Like you put it BeingMe, think she is getting to realize missed time with sons. Asked and she gave me her input that she would like us to come back to CO, even offered to find us a place, find me a job, etc. Maybe last year I would have fallen for that but can see that she realizes that this may be the permanent separation from the boys and would probably act nice until I'm trapped there.
SuitedUp, hear what you are saying but still new to this divorced thing after 24 yrs married. Can't understand why there should always be a dark cloud but have seen it with other couples over the years, more w/those that stay together that probably shouldn't have.
Opti, It is a win-win for me with a couple of exceptions. The boys won't hardly see their sister and after the rough first year we all had here we grew very close. But I suppose other families deal with older siblings that go off to college, get jobs and/or married, and never get back toghther in the same town. Not seeing their mom doesn't bother me since I consider her situation a bad influence, she thinks that just because she is "happy" that makes her continued R with the OM who's affair broke up our M and family is "all right" and I'm here trying to teach them integrity which is opposite. The other thing is what I see as the finality of the R. Imagine anyone that has read my posts can pick up on that I'm a person that has difficulty letting go. Being traditional, had held out that there was a possibility I could get the family back together. By the time NJ is over all the children will be in college so by then no family to really get back together. Maybe live in the same town but not the same home. Just feel like I let my sons down for their teen years by not keeping the family together but the only thing I can do now is be the best father for them, I tried my hardest but it was too late.
Thanks all for your inputs, and for being there, albeit virtually. RonJon
