I woke up this morning realising that after spending time on Angelica's Batcave thread, I had been visiting my H's batcave in Dreamland .....!!
It was horrible to be there.....although of course I have NO idea what it REALLY looks like....
I'm struggling a little today....I don't WANT to contact H and even if I did I really wouldn't know WHAT to actually say....so NO CONTACT still stands.
I just really miss him, I'm worried too of course about him - yes mom behaviour and I need to let it go, but I was hoping that by writing it down it would leave my head and I could keep on letting things go, one by one.
Celestial do I take it that you and your H are trying to get back together after 2 years? I love those stories....they are so hopeful and it makes me really want to trust in God and time.... I hope you do find each other again and live a happy life together !
PWS, you have become so independant and strong it is unbelievable !!! I remember you obsessing about the OW, but NOW, now you stand for who YOU are and you're proud of it too !!!! I admire you greatly !!!! You are a super woman and you managed the detachment really well !
I hope that this NC will not do more damage....although I doubt that's possible. Afterall H did tell me to let go of him during his 'drunk' after-ball-conversation with me. I was letting go, and now I HAVE let go of him, to him even literally because I won't see him. I keep having faith in God and letting it GO !!!
Ok, it's all out, have to go and meet some friends for coffee !! Lots of love,
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
