Thanks everyone. It's nice to know I am not alone in all this. Oh, I hope I did mess anything up. I have been super positive, haven't brought anything up. I can't possibly do or try any better than I am, but do you know what I did today. H asked me for some chapped lip stuff. He was already in bed and I couldn't find any in the house and I said, you have some in your truck, I will get it. He said don't worry about it, but me trying so hard, went out to the truck to get it... well I found a note from 2/27/07 from gf (this must have been right before he came home)a note that said "I love you honey, your the best!" Ooooohh I hate her! And I found two tampons. I never even kept tampons in his truck, ever! Guess what I did? Oh yes, ripped the note to shredds and threw it and the 2 tampons in the outside garbage.
Gee, you don't think he will leave because of that do you? I sure hope not. I could not help myself, now I am worried. And I see the past 2 days she has called him. Around the same time... between 3:30 and 3:45. Once she called from her parents house and the others from her phone which she switched the caller I.D. off as if I am not going to figure out it is her. She thinks she is sooooooo smart. NOT!!!! Sorry, venting, she makes me so angry! She needs to get her own life! Well, at least he did not call her right, I guess I can expect them to ease out of it, right? I am not going to say anything about these things to him. I am just going to act "as if" I haven't even noticed.
Sorry I am going on and on about her even though you guys said to focus more on me, i am doing that, too, but i figure if I vent here and not on him that it better, right. I know I am better than her deep down inside, but I wish I could feel it from him, you know what I mean? Maybe someday again he will stick up for my like he used to instead of thinking she is so great and sticking up for her.
Anyways, stay with me guys and let me know if you think I screwed up with what I did today or not too badly. Thanks,
