It was a good day. I am thankful. I held my little niece for a while this afternoon. I sang to her and rocked her. It was so wonderful. Took all my sadness away.
H. called me again this afternoon. He wanted to ask how the baby was doing. He started out sounding "high up" like he did this morning. I told him about my test results and he said he was glad to hear that. And I told him about my job interview and he asked a few questions, and said it sounded like it was pretty much a guarantee, then. He wished me luck, but he did not sound genuinely happy anymore. Not like he did this morning about the baby. And then, he said he had to go, he was going to work. And we hung up.
I guess he left me somewhat confused.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
Maybe amd. You could be right. I mean this is a nice career job I would be getting. And at one point, he just suggested that I go hostess somewhere for a while. Now, not that this is a bad job, and in fact I probably would enjoy it. But I am well-educated and have a ton of work experience, and am frankly overqualified to work in a restaurant. But it would be a temporary job, wouldn't it? Maybe he didn't want me to settle myself down. I don't know. But honestly I don't care. What did he expect? I have to look out for myself because no one else will.
Thank you for all the well-wishes. I am smiling tonight; we have a little angel in our family. My brother and SIL are wonderful people and no one deserves this more than they do.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
Well well well. I knew something was different today. Hope has the news that we have been praying for, and a baby and a convo with H, another friend called with good news too. I had an email from someone I do not know, and it was one of those You are in my prayers kind of email???????? I like today. YOu are a blessing to us all Hope. God wants to continue that support for us. Holly
Bomb 1/06 D dismissed 11/07, attempt reconciliation. Premature. Divorce final October 31, 2008. OW looks like bad history. Over. Still hopeful. Baby steps. In R with my X.
I am so happy for you, a new niece, clean bill of health, still in the running for the "big" job AND you got to talk to your real H even if just for a few minutes.
Hope you are truly blessed. You will stay in my prayers.
