Huband just moved in with OW

[Danu]

It's been a few days since I last posted. Not too much new with my sitch. OW's husband has called a few times. The poor guy! I feel so bad for him! I am really torn as to if I should have a lot of contact with him. On some level it eases my pain as he understands how I feel. On the other hand, I've had to tell him that I do not want to know what "they" are up to. He does his best to honor my wishes in that respect. He's been calling her constantly, and the most he's gone is 3 days with no contact. I've told him over and over he has to stop contacting her. But, like so many of the WAS, she often leads him on, saying "Who knows what the future will bring...."

I did find out that their daughter has no intention of staying with them, and every weekend has been staying with her dad. Don't know what's up with H wanting his bed all of a sudden, and I guess I don't care. I actually feel better emotionally NOT having contact with him. Although he's still on my mind all the time. I'm sick of it. It's a real struggle to GAL!!! I've been spending alot of time on this board reading. It's so helpful. I wish OW's husband would do that too. I've sent him books, told him about this site, so maybe he will start soon.

I've started smoking again. At first I was ashamed of myself, but I think it's helping a little. I will quit again! The Dr. upped my blood pressure meds, so once that plains off I'll quit.

It's a pretty nice day here, and I've got the day off unexpectedly, so I"m shoveling snow. I love to shovel snow! Been spending time with friends, and that helps.

I am still very hopeful, and that makes it hard to GAL. I"ve always been so independant, and interested in so many things. I can't believe it's so hard to just plain think of something else!

As always, thanks for listening! We all know that someday we will be happy again!

Danu