I'm going to take this opportunity to say that I need to take a break from posting about myself as I have in this thread. I have a lot to process and I'm just beginning to find my way. I feel like I've undergone at least a year's worth of therapy in a week!
I appreciate all the responses; they have helped me to understand myself a little better. Should I feel the need to start up again, well, I'll know where to find you.