H just called. Asked if I was not speaking to him since I didn't answer the phone last night. I told him I was sleeping. He started crying about s14. How he was holding his baby niece and all he could think about was s14 at that age. I told him that I can't push s14 into anything right now. He is angry and H was told to expect that by a number of people. I will not present a united front to the kis as I don't believe D is the best option. I told H that you don't get a fresh slate. You have a life and if you need to fix things you do. You just don't walk away and expect everyone to be happy about it.
So he rambled on a bit and asked me what he should do. I told him I can't tell him what to do. He asked me what I wanted him to do and I told him he already knew what I wanted. He asked how I could even want him back after this.
Anyway, he is upset I won't go back to C with him right now. I told him the only way I would go back was if it was to repair our M. He then said that he didn't want to go to court for the custody agreement. I told him this is his deal. He needs to deal with it. I think he is scared. I know he is upset. I just don't know how he is going to handle this.
