Although sometimes my husband says I must have a crystal ball~
I do not but I would venture to say most likely she took it out. I had given my H a CD ( that I made for him and on the outside it said from me to you) when we were seperated and it was broken in half. I know he would not do such a thing it is not like him. My Husband has had the same picture in his wallet for years too ( 10 ~). He never took it out even when with her.
So just focus on you~ you are awesome and she is nothing compared to you. Do not bring it up for now. Be strong.Be positve when he is around.
I felt those things too and sometimes still do and we have been piecing since last August it gets easier with time. I used to be super postive when he was around,, anytime I frowned he always asked what was up. OOOOPS....
It reminds them of the pain they caused you. If he really cares he will not say " HEY I KNOW YOU ARE FEELING X, Y OR Z B/C OF WHAT I DID." But he will internalize it and feel guilty. MY H was still so Raw about what he has done to me that in Dec. when I mentioned that the Tattoo he still carries with her name on it hurts me he BLEW UP like a GEYSER. He was seeing her for @ 10 weeks or so and he has had the tattoo far longer. LONG STORY~
At any rate I hope you can see~ as hard as it is let her go and keep working on letting her go. He will need time to do it and you need to be gentle and when you feel like what the H*ll I need to be gentle with him what about me? Take a deep breath and remember how far you have come and how much you love him and how you are better than all the BS they put you thru. Let it go and work on healing and being HAPPY that is the best thing you can do for your R. And most of all for YOU. You being happy and centered is paramount in this healing and piecing~ I promise you you can do this ~ keep strong and keep being the best you. All my best to you and please do not forget to take care of you too.
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YOU are something, YOU mean something, YOU have no equal.
Someone very kind put this in my thread and it felt so good to read it. This is you too, do not forget it. Write it down and read it ~ when you feel like you cant be strong another minute~ You can and you will~ I promise you~ Just be humble and love yourself and your H and keep working on it. It wil be the hardest thing you do and also the Most rewarding~ God bless...
