Today had a revalation, xw called after a long day at work and was mad because I didn't answer her e-mail. Never received an de-mail but she doesn't believe that, she wantsd the kids for Spring break which I said was OK but now she wants them for the week I already made plans because last month she wanted them the week earlier. Talk about a crazy one, but ther revalation wan't that (middle aged crazy), it was hearing the bottled up resentment and anger come flooding out at me that made me realize there is no way we could ever get back together or at least not until years down the road. At one point lost it my self and raised my voice but quickly regathered. It amazes me how all the small steps are just like building a house of cards and how quickly things can collapse. I swear that woman enjoys fighting with me even now when I don't fight back. One high note, if it can be called that, is while bring up the past (which I should know by now not to do) she told me stuff that she never had before although it turned out to be yet more reasons how her resentment built up over the years. Sometimes I'm so hard-headed but maybe that's better that it's taken me so long to realize this. So looking at now that, Divorced and Done, moving to NJ, not back to CO. RJ
