Looking Up

[Heywyre]

Just filling you guys in on what's been happening for me. I haven't been around much as work is busy, busy, busy and I just don't have the time in the evenings - I miss you all!!

Anyway, we went to the Meatloaf concert last Friday night and it was fantastic. H even said afterwards that it was the "best therapy" he's had in a long time and it "felt like old times" - that made me feel pretty good.

Then Saturday evening we went out for a nice meal (fancy restaurant nearby that we really like).

Once again, male friend of his has been on the road for the past couple of weeks so we were sans-friend again, which was nice. He came back into town today, but H only saw him for a little while, H has to work tomorrow and male friend is heading back out Wednesday morning.

Then Sunday, we actually went for a nice long walk along the canal. So, all in all it was a pretty nice weekend, almost like it used to be and almost too good to believe.

Then Monday happens .... this was the day H used to go and see OW so it doesn't sit well with me as yet (it never was a fav day of mine to begin with). H was coming to have lunch with me on Mondays to get over the hump, but he has been trying to ween me off of that. I am still stressed about it but getting better. He said he was going to the library today and asked that I call him on my break. I did and he was home so I know there wasn't any "visiting" going on because she lives too far from where we are to do that between break and when I got home. It was tough but I got through the day.

The days are getting longer, the flowers are coming up and things seem to be easing off. H is even going to the doctor tomorrow because he is going to try and ween off the meds (AD) a little. He talked to the C today about it and he didn't think it would be a bad idea because he feels there are a lot of other positives in his life right now that are helping him come out of the depression, not just the meds. I would love to see him come off them completely but, quite frankly I am concerned considering what has happened twice now. And, even H said he was scare of "going back into the black hole" so I know he will be cautious of going off them completely.

So, as much as I am still going up and down with the emotions, I guess I can't complain too much as I feel we have progressed fairly quickly for the short time span since the second bomb - roughly 2½ months