Life of Job

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Had a great night!

Was detached, I love this woman, I really don't know what my life will be like without her, but it will be what it needs to be, and we will be OK.

Wife came by after work, I asked if she was hungry? because we had leftovers, she said yes, thank you. Kids were all over the place, last min. homework, then the fun began. S6 was telling us all about his dream last night, we were all in stiches by the end of it. D12 was making cupcakes for her class tommorrow and is just a sight trying to figure out what to do first, flour or eggs.

Wife did an awesome job on cake, a perfect chicago bears "C" on white frosting, I almost feel bad eating it. D12 wanted a #54, but it didn't fit.

As the night ended, she said thank you for feeding her, and letting her be a part of the family. I told her that there would never be a time that she wasn't welcome in this house, and there would never be a time that we wouldn't be happy to see her. As she got ready to leave, I gave her a little tool kit(see previous post about toilet) and told her if she was going to be on her own, she needed to be prepared for what came her way, but I intended to get the tools back.

I had printed out her e-mails(no computer at new house), including itinerary for work trip which most likely includes OM, nothing on my part, just "thought you might need this".

I really have no expectations at this point. I have been gut punched, sucker punched, hit below the belt, and hit in the face. At the same time, she has shown how much she loves her family, as much as she can at this point. She has been cold and distant, and tender and loving. I don't know what to expect at this point, but whatever it is we will take it in stride and keep our eyes on the prize.

I am officially "in the fight". I will not back down or turn away. I will work towards being the man I was meant to be and stand for my marriage. If this marriage fails, it will not be because I got tired or lazy, or fed up, it will be because despite my best efforts, the plan was something else all along.