Hi again. I'm trying to catch up on your sitch. You've been DBing a long time, and seem to have a grip on how to do it, as far as I can see.
I'm not very good at giving advice, I just have to say I admire you for keeping it together as well as you have. I understand about negative thoughts invading your mind, I think that happens to a lot of people here.
I haven't read your entire sitch. yet, but have you and H sat down at all and spoken about your R? I know Michelle says no R talk at all, but in my opinion, it's ok if things have become stalled, just to see where you both are "at". Jill