Haven't been here for a few days..today seems to be a lonely day for some reason..I sometimes get a strange feeling that everything is not going to work out in my m, and then I don't know if I will make it or not.H called to ask me to make some cookies for work next week..but that is the only reason..never just to say hi, he rarely asks how things are going. I just start to lose faith that he is not going to even try. When he told our kids that we need to get to know each other again as a couple..that it does not mean d...when is he going to make any effort at these things he said? I know I have had these questions all along..I just want something said or done..however small, to know one way or the other..should I ask for a r talk at this point...or since he has not initiated one then it would be pressuring him? Am I missing the signs of his smiles at church or the calls about cookies as signs of I am still working on me right now..but that I care??When I think about his ring I almost want to break down and cry..I have thought about taking just my diamond off, but can't seem to do it..is that clinging to a hope or deniel??I have so many emotions right now..and I knwo from past days that now is not a good time for me to talk to him..as I would cry and come accross as neddy and whiny..so for now I will just let it out here, and try to lift up my spirits. Sue
