You have just as much of reason to be here as any of us!!!
Don't try to belittle your sitch in comparison to others here. Your sitch is no less difficult for you to deal with.
I, too, do care and feel for you very much and wish I could find more words to help you through the difficult times.
I get a sense of a raising frustration level in your more recent visits and do hope that you don't lose the patience that I admire you for. You have shown yourself here to be a strong yet compassionate lady and that is the kind of support we all here do benefit from!!