I understand many of your feelings. My H said all the same things to me. I'm not going anywhere. You'll see me all the time. Since he left I have seen him exactly six time. Like you, I wonder how can he just walk away and forget everything. But I have decided this is his issue. When he comes here I will make it fun and warm and loving. When he is not here I will not call him. This is about him. If he finds his way back wonderful. If not he's the loser.