Ali,
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I am not losing weight though...
Muscle weighs more than fat. So as you get stronger, you might even get heavier, but keep an eye on your waist size, muscle tone, etc and less on the weight thing.
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My H will be home next week and I am excited and at the same time petrified,, will I be able to show him me w/o fear in our bedroom how much I love him?
That is a big step Ali. I hope you realize it may not happen right away. You may have to work on it. Maybe if you even told your H that it's your goal, and ask him if he'll help you get there. I just don't know if it's a good idea to have high expectations of yourself upon your H's homecoming. It might be just the opposite, you might actually feel disappointed that he's home, or you might start your P or something. Or, he might not be in the mood. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.
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He is sooooooooooo damn stubborn though,, he said awhile ago when he feels like I am giving him all I can then he will do the same,,,,, he sure knows how to pressure a girl.
ARRRGHH! Why do these people make things so difficult? I hear ya, hopefully your efforts will not go unnoticed or unappreciated.

I say, try prayer instead of alchohol to get you in the mood. Ask God to help you.

Ali, I think that no matter what happens, you'll be proud of yourself for trying, giving it all. If things work out well, your H turns on, then you'll have your beautiful M. If it does'nt, then you'll know you gave it all. Hopefully, there'll be a balance, an ebb and flow that you both can live with.

I'm excited for you, sounds like you're really growing and healing. Keep up the good work on YOU!

God Bless,

COG


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