Now Surviving Separation

[Heartbroken]

Theo,

Thanks - you bring tears to my eyes and they are happy tears!

I have so many friends saying he will come around.

I just have to watch my level of hope because I swore I would not let him hurt me like he did when he brought Ow into our home and then lied to my face about it. I have guarded my heart (somewhat) now and I am taking it day by day and you are right he- NO - WE need to go through this to get to the end. I said that in Jan. when he came to me with the truth that there was OP. I said if he had been truthful in August - I would not want him with her and he would have choosen her at that point w/o a doubt. So we had to go through those painful months to get this far. I know this is no where from being over and I continue to prep myself for the long haul.

I am already getting closer to the kids. D12 has always been independent (since BIRTH) and now she sees my pain and hugs me way more than ever before. S9 has always been my hugger and he is worried about me too. They are not sure how to feel with Dad - they walk on eggshells around him right now.

It's day by day for us at this point...

Thanks for the kinds words - YOU help keep my spirit alive!
HB