LL and KAW you are both right(as usuaul) Why can't I just let go??I thought I ws doing real good..making time for me..taking care of me..actually liking going where and when I want without having to let anyone else know..but and a big but..that part of me wants to be wanted, loved, hugged just something to let me know I am loved or at leaast liked.I am sure a professional would say these are all normal feelings and I know it is ok to feel these things.