ya. it is very tough thinking about the past. I still do it sometimes in church...I'll see fathers with their families and think "oh, how I wished H would want to be with us". But I am grateful to have him back in our lives. I really hope that God's plan for you is to wake your H up and he will come back, but even if that isn't in his plan, I know there is someone out there for you who will be the H you truely need.
It is so hard letting go. Maybe H's trip will shed some light on him and give him some new perspectives. Hopefully his parents won't bash on him of how bad his choices he's making are...cause I think that would just turn him away from you further. I do hope that they ask open questions to get him thinking, and not to be judgemental.
God bless Crissy
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
