Happy 2003!! I truly hope that this new year is a beginning for all of us here to really be able to find peace...even if our r don't turn out the way we hope for, but to really be able to say "I am a stronger person for all that I am trying to cope with." To find the happiness and respect and love that we all deserve..of course I pray that it is with our spouses!!! I usually do not have resolutions..I do hope I can keep the weight off that I have lost this year..I want to continue to grow in the ways that I have been afraid to in the past. Last night h came over, we had some freinds and relatives in to play some games..one game "Imanginiff" where you try to choose out of 6 answers what one player would choose..it is hard to explain, but h and I seemed to guess right for each other..it seems small but a little step in that I had lost track on how much we really do know about each other.The last few years I feel like we don't know each other anymore, but when little things about the past come up, we both seem to remember.. I don't think I just made any sense..sorry H went home about 1a.m...wish he would have just said he would stay the night..guess he is not ready to..will he ever be?? I have been replaying everything in my mind and what ifs are creeping in..h been gone 6 weeks..what if 6mos. from now we are still at this same point?? Why won't he talk to me about his feling now as oppsed to 3 months ago..just let me know if he feels better about things..I have to be patient, coming here helps me sort it all out.. See ya Sue
