Now Surviving Separation

[Heartbroken]

Just talked to H about this week's schedule and he asked how the kids are doing and I told what they said last night. Basically they do not like to show him their true feelings because they do not want to see him cry (it's okay to see Mom cry cuz that's what Mom's do...) H says he knows that they are not 'just fine' with all of this and he will try to talk to them again...

We had a good convo, laughed and I ended it first but overall it still made me down. I hate that our lives have become this - it is all comsuming and it's all I think about. Sometimes I wish for that time machine - just take me to the end of all of this no matter which way it goes down.... Okay I need some PMA right now - I need to get out of this funk...