H came over to do laundry and watch some football. I had some baking I was doing and was torn if I should be sitting in with him. So I did both, he does not say anything unless I start the conversation. I did ask him about ff, she has the new "love of her life", h said they might go to Cancoon in January, I said do you think she's going to jump into m again, h said she needs to get d first! I asked if she calls him like she used ot, he said no, that she spends all her time with "him". Good for me, but h, I hope sees that he was ok for all those horrible months she had with her h, and now that she has a new man, she does not need him. I still wonder if there really was ever anything more between them, if so why didn't h choose her over me???They could have planned it all, and then when h moved out they could be together..maybe I really and once and for all was very wrong on what I suspected. Da..why do I think h is cold to me, I do believe(unless I am wrong..again) that he is hurt for me assuming there was something more then friendship.I still think he made the choice to comfort her too much, while pushing me away. I do have to be careful not to ask him these same things every time he's here.I think I have brought her up several times and I know that he will not want to come around if she is going to be in every conversation. Otherwise good day, took off a few from work, it feels soo good to have some stress free days..went shopping, baked.just played house..When I was sitting in mall, I saw young couples and thought "that was us a few years ago", where did it go wrong..c brought up once that being m 23 years means we did something right..I hope we can recover it again. Take care till later Sue
