Life of Job

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Theoden;

Thank you for your continued input and prayers. You have encapsulated things nicely as usual.

I agree, my anger and hatred has to go somewhere and it can't be my wife so OM becomes one huge bullseye. But even that is difficult, by condeming it(OM is not man enough to warrent a "him") I condem my wife by association.

I know that God has to be first, and I realize that as christians we are not immune to the pitfalls that plague human relationships, but it is just so hard to focus on Him right now. I can bearly make it through a service without breaking down because I know how far away I am. I am at a loss as to how to pray about this anymore. It dosn't seem as though I can really get to the point where ALL I want is his will, I want him to show me how to put my family back together again, I want Him to tell me WHY? I come to Him with requests for MY life, not with a heart ready to accept His will.