Thanks, guys for the mood booster, this is one of the many positives that we all have going for ourselves. Coming here, venting, crying and yes laughing while going through our personal journies. LL, I am trying not to let anger take over, but as you know we have a right to have our feelings, and over the past year I guess I kinda kept them covered for fear that I would upset something. Now I am learning that I don't have to. It's all about learning when, and how to display and communicate those feelings. Bob, you always have wise advice and hints to follow. yes h knew him, not well, as they moved after a few years, our daughters were good friends. Our d and her friends left for a trip for the weekend, and I asked her to call when they got there. She did and I thought it would be nice to call h and let him know she's ok. So I did, and he was not home, so I left a message with all the details not expecting a call back. In the meantime i decided to go to video store and get some Christmas movies(it was 9:30p.m) when I got back he had called and said if I got back before 10 he would still be awake. So I called and we just chatted for a few minutes about the day and d trip. he had asked wheere I had gone so late, and I told him I got a few movies, he aske which ones. Sooooo I saw that as a very tiny step to caring about something. He is a HUGE Star Trek fan, and son is going to see it tonight,(he works at theatre so can have friends come and watch after it closes) I asked h if son had asked him to go..he said no, I thought h might ask if I wanted to go. It's not my kind of movie, but I would go. So, today is a brighter day and we all know we have the roller coaster rides ahead, it's being able to get through each step without losing control and I feel that it could easily fall apart if we did not have the tools to catch it in time. Sue
