Well just another ducky day at the pool. Sat down in my seat surrounded by friends with s14 and a friend in front of me. They get up to get a drink and who plops down...H. In a huge area with tons of seating he takes s14s seat. I tell him s14 is sitting there and he doesn't move. A few minutes later H gets up and s14 comes back. He sits down and I tell him his father is here and sat in his seat. H comes back and sits next to s14 and s14 gets up and leaves. H has angry look on his face the whole time. Doesn't speak to me much and when I tell him d11 found phone...all he can say is I knew she did something with it and didn't tell me. UGH...she is a young girl and dropped it. Not on purpose.
Anyway, s14 is not the same for the rest of the day. Wouldn't come back to the stands and didn't go out with us for pizza after. Wanted to go home. This morning he wakes up and doesn't feel good. He said he was up all night with bad dreams and his stomack is upset. I let him go back to bed and stay home from school.
So in summary, H miserable to all at swimming yesterday. Barely speaking to me. Why is he sitting in front of me? He could have sat anywhere but why the need to be in my space? The anger in him is overwhelming. He has thrown our whole life in a mess and is so unaccountable. Now s14 doesn't know if he wants to go to christening on sunday. I tried to explain that he can find his own space at sil's but I don't know what he will do. This rift between he and H is huge and I feel so helpless.
So snodderly, I guess I will hang tight. As I said to a friend at swim yesterday, this is not the man I married. I don't even know him. I just wish the old H would return, but right now that seems impossible so I must lay low and drop the rope.
