You know I am beginning to wonder if I am becoming a waw, I am very slowly beginning to feel like I just don't want to do this anymore. Last night my H grabbed me in away that made me feel like a piece of meat, it wasn't tender or anything, I wount go into detail, anyways it got me upset and had a few tears, H came in saw this and got really angry, next thing he is laying down on the couch in the dark and wount talk to me. He finally says that he isn't getting any better, and that he has made no progress that wasn't drug induced. The thing is I am the one who is giving the supporting words, sitting with him, trying to get him threw this, but I just don't know if I have anymore to give him. I want someone to show me that kind of love, to care about me that much and I don't think he is ever going too. I deserve better then this, I deserve someone who will love me and care what happens to me. Sometimes I feel like my h cares more about our dog then me, he is more tender with her then me! And you know thats just a horrible feeling that in some way I am jealous of our dog! I don't know if I can wait it out, and see if things improve, I don't know what to do!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!
