Ditto, honey. Sh!t, I'm so sorry. You are doing all the right things that I can see. Don't doubt that. Do circle the wagons with some support people IRL. I agree with that idea.
You are going to be GREAT. Unfortunately the only way through this is THROUGH it, dammit. But the other side is going to be great, whatever that is. And God WILL restore the years the locusts have eaten. He promises us that, and His words are true.
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
