Life of Job

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Whatis and Alan;
Thank you both, I am grateful for your support. Kids are home, W just left, so I can take some hot water and lye soap and scrub this stupid smile off my face.

Went well, with her here, talked about D11 B-day and who was making the cake, she joked about having to borrow some flour, eggs, pans, a mixer, etc. I just smiled and said "why don't I bake it and you decorate it, you can come by after work tommorrow." That seemed agreeable to her.

At one point she bumped into me, said she was sorry, my reply was that I can and have taken much harder hits then that, and that I was pretty tough, to which she said, "yes you are."

I don't know what this is all going to end up being, but I do know that her moving out is part of it. Without the desire to come back home, there can be no lasting solution to this, and if that desire simply is not there, then she needs to be some place else.

Tonight, in between crying and redecorating, I came to the conclusion that I will be OK with or without her. I love her more then life itself, but "this to shall pass", if need be.

I am a wonderful, talented, devoted husband and father. I have always put my family first. I am funny and not bad looking. I have a deep faith in God. I have 3 incredeble children who are the other loves of my life. I have always cared about others and continue to do so. We will be fine, come what may.